Dearest M

Dearest M,

I'm so sorry to make you sad like this.
I'm just shocked when you give me that choice.
It's been months you're disappearing from my life, just like that.
It has begun since that accident, hasn't it?
I hate being judged when I did nothing wrong that time.
I'm innocent.
So I remove everybody from my life list since then.
I have noone.
No friend, no lover, just enemy.
I'm so disappointed with life so i keep staying in dangerous area in Nanggroe.
I'm waiting for a bullet in my brain so I can end up my miserable life.
All you have to do is pull the trigger.
But I have to tell you the truth.
If I have to pick up someone tonight before I die, you're the first one on my list.
I hope time will heal our wounded heart.
Please take care of yourself.
Bye.

The Island, 19 April 2010