Honey (E)

Staring at you hon, always leaving the longing and the pain

Must restrain all my feeling when we met

Should turned my head to the other way

when I really wanted is looking into your eyes

Right into the deep of your soul

When I really wanted to embrace you

What came out from my lips is a word “goodbye”

When my heart still wants to be there right by your side

My footsteps take me away from you

Heading to a quiet and empty home

Oh, Honey

I’m not asking you to split the ocean

Or flatten the mountains

Or conquered the highest peak

What I ask is you, only you, stand by my side

Fill my days, to carve the pages of our life history

I love you more than I love of myself

So I relented, not force

So that you can achieve all your life dreams

I threw myself away so I won’t be a barrier that hinders your path

Consciously, I killed myself smoothly and slowly

I knit the webs to trap myself

In idealism intrique to struglle for human rights

Oh, Honey

The Island, January 8, 2010